lack

what an absolutely beautiful girl
the kind you want to spoil
with designer jeans, lotions, cars
apartments with views and hot tubs

what a beautiful girl
yet you're here scraping together pennies
earned on a blog while not cleaning up
vomit and dirty tables at the bar

what a beautiful girl told a magnificent story
of how--nevermind, i'm to hungover
from work to remember it. still,
this girl is gorgeous and besides

my massive moctezuma
there's nothing i have
to please
what a beautiful girl

how she kept her job

i heard a rumor:
my slut pig girlfriend
went to smoke a cigarette
up in the breeze on the roof
of her office tower.

she was stressed out
by her boss, and trembling

slightly shaking

slightly shivering.

he came up
dropped his pants
to his ankles
and said:
"gag on it! or I'm firing you

you dumb piece of shit!"

"can't you see I'm smoking,"
they say she said.

he stuffed out her
cigarette.

early morning booty call

you know my girlfriend

is a piece of shit

you know because she's

always angry, a time bomb

that explodes over and over

again, yet

no matter how angry

or because of how angry

she'll act more and more depraved

they say money talks

but so does cock

and pussy screams

she wants it

no more angry bjs

and trashing each other

she said, then

came over at 6:30 am

after I'd closed the bar

a downed a few bottles of beer

I was fast asleep

had to use a fire extinguisher

after emptying the ashtrays

had to use soap to my elbow

after cleaning up a bag of puke

left in a bag

she's upset I'm tired

accuses me of fucking another jenny

all night

this is perfect for you, she says,

I make you mad and you call

her

and you fuck her ass

and you make her eat it

and you make her drip

your cream

out her ass

your cream

into her hand

from her asshole

then into her mouth

your cream

cause i made you mad

i give you an excuse to use her.

look at you, so happy

she bangs her head into the wall

reaches for a knife

from under the sink

i grab her wrist,

get to work

or you'll be late

she walks out

and to the elevator

then she looks back

at me

at my raging hard on

she walks back, drops

her bags to the floor

i have to gag her with my cock

at the front door

watching the elevator

her bags on the ground

she sucks it deep

look up at me, whore

she makes eye contact

that's it

that's how you suck a cock

you wanna eat jizz?

she nods while deepthroating

i will fill you with cream

she makes a wretching sound

i hold her cheeks

i hold her forehead

i tilt her further back

watch her bottom lip hit my balls

she makes more wretching sound

oh yeah, the pig's about to eat jizz

i unload all my frustrations, my wit's end

into her mouth, she swallows it

each swallow milking my cock further

each swallow a plea, a cry for help

a petition asking me not to seek another ass

another mouth, another cunt

to use

i object:

my cream alleges it's innocence

in the matter, so clean and white

i pull cock out slowly, again

she signs that pleading document

with that sound

runs in the house, to the bathroom sink

and pukes

she comes back to the hallway:

kneel, i cleaned the floor

and don't want your shoes

dirtying it

she crawls out of the house

i watch her through the peep-hole,

she stands up, smooths out, and

waits for the elevator

i make sure the whore gets in

and goes down